The State of Abe, Inc.

Went to graduation commencement to hear the ceremonies... left when they started calling out names. If you had to write a graduation speech, what would u say?

Mom here, taking me back to arcadia before the trip tomorrow. Things are happening too quickly to think.

Will not be updating while on trip I think.

Message to my follow citizens of the State of Abe:

See ya laterz, goodbyes are not in order at the moment because death is still at least 40-50 years away.

48hrs of planning...

Going to UCSD to hang out with high school friends tonight. Coming back to attend graduation tomorrow to stand in the audience and get contact info from as many people as I can... and just to be there. I will not miss a funeral because it is sad, neither will I miss a graduation.

That evening I will pack and ship all my stuff back to Fort Wang. The next morning and afternoon I will do last minute preparations--like packing and getting a haircut-- and at 4pm go to the airport to europe.

I board a London-bound plane at 7pm. I will be in Europe for 46 days and 46 nights. When I return, I will be finding housing and frantically reading through my summer reading list before taking my first Southwestern Law School class starting August 14th. Three years (of celibate study) later, I’ll join the workforce— and from there I do not know…

Friend Christina Woo made my day today. Stopped off to give me a card of well-wishes. Haven't known her for a long time, but know her well and wish to know her better.

She also included 10 British pounds. Just enough to get me from the airport to the hotel. My plans before were to exchange money at the airport, but her thoughtful gift erased one more worry off my mind. I will secure a UK version of the new Harry Potter in mint condition for her for her thoughtfulness (she is a librarian and a fellow harry potter fan).

When I look into the rearview or sideview mirrors when driving, I have a tendency to slow down. This inability to quickly glance in the mirror and then speed up to change lanes hinders me from driving forward quickly and efficiently.

When I look back into past events in life, I have a tendency to slow down. I can't let go; I don't want to look forward at all the good things to come; I want to be here, be happy, be in my own beautiful bubble world I have conquered and civilized. When I look back at what I leave behind, my desire for road rage fizzles.

Fate has always treated me well, with a good combination of good events and bad so I am generally happy, but don't get soft. I defer to Fate once again for guidance on the road to life...

Feeling sad about graduation.... each year 1/4 of my friends scatter like dandelion seeds. This year, I'm the seed. What's worse, instead of losing 1/4 of my friends, I lose 4/4 at the same time. I would stay in college if I could.

I should be happy-- I'm going to europe, I have a bright future-- but now all I can think about is the loss of my friends, and how I should have worked harder in college to get Honors and how there is sooooo many things I could have done in college that I now don't have the time for because I must charge forward. I am a sad and frustrated little boy humbled by hindsight and powered by regrets.

I figure graduation is a lighter version of old age when I'm like 70-80 years old and every year there will be some of my friends that "move on."

It is quiet in Irvine.
Graduation is tomorrow.
To me there is nothing to celebrate about, it's a funeral, not a celebration.

Tomorrow I must be brave and smile broadly because I cannot let what could be the last sight my friends have of me be a downcast face.

When it comes to cleaning after people-- the more you do, the more you will do.

The State of Abe (TSA) stocks rallied late today... stubborn optimism runs high as enemy forces are scattered.

Camera problems solved. Thanks Friend Alice for saving the day, thanks Friend Dante for the backup. Olympus gave me $20-30 worth of new batteries and it works like a charm. TSA roars into the digital age with new photo capability.

Unexpected good news... 3B Books division regains marketshare as inventory refills.

Camera problems the eve of europe trip...

Had lunch with Alice yesterday and ended up taking me to olympus headquarters to see if we could get them to fix the camera... they couldn't. Today in the morning I get a call from Alice asking to check to see if the repair people called me-- they didn't. Great followup on alice's part, failure on olympus' part again... Don't buy olympus yall.

In any case, I blog not to gripe, but to recognize Alice and Parath for their continued efforts to solve my problem. A & P am cool!!

Big BeeBee: Search is surprisingly expensive to run (it uses a lot of server power). We've taken search down for a bit so the rest of Xanga can run smoothly. Sorry for the inconvenience; we hope to have it back up and running soon.


Big BeeBee: ughhh, not working
Big BeeBee: when i grow up, i'm going to make things work dammit

Cramming as much research on eurp as I can in the next week. I study more than students on finals week.

Shares of The State of Abe Rise Following Fortuitous News:

Standing in line at Albertson’s to fetch dinner, this lady saw she had a lot of stuff (and I had two items), so she kindly let me go first. Saved 10 minutes at least… makes me want to go help others. Crediting ten more minutes of my life to helping others.

3B Books makes an unexpected sale. True, it was only $7, but it paid for dinner! And here I was walkin’ back feeling guilty at splurging on chicken sadly thinking that I could not pay for it because 3B bottomed out. CEO Abeness the Babeness issued a statement stating that he "does not expect sales to continue for the flagship division, but we will reap what profits we can."

tsai5491: yeah, i think you'd be happiest if you had a guarenteed source of income
tsai5491: and you were told to just "make XXX better"
tsai5491: where XXX is something you're interested in
tsai5491: that would probablly be near ideal life for abe
tsai5491: which is rare, cause most people, given free time, would sit on their ass and vegitate


Jon's collorary:

1. XXX must include interaction with the world
2. XXX must include other people
3. XXX must be something you agree with
4. the betterment XXX must have tangeble effect

tsai5491: i think bonnie's envied how you can find the smallest thing entertaining since you guys were kids

Big BeeBee: haha
Big BeeBee: i thought that was default human nature

tsai5491: nah
tsai5491: most people would just pass it off as abe being weird

Big BeeBee: =-O

tsai5491: bonnie sorta envies how you see something there that she doesn't

Big BeeBee: really.
Big BeeBee: didn't know that
Big BeeBee: news 2 me

What can you see abe doing in the future?

tsai5491: most normal jobs are too boring for abe, i think
tsai5491: you either need a pretty unique job
tsai5491: or a unique specialty within a normal profession

tsai5491: tho it's hard for non-abe people to see what constitutes as "unique"
tsai5491: 'cause who knows what abe finds so entertaining about that puddle of mud
tsai5491: [poke]

how much should a guy spend on a diamond?

if u were the wife, and i offered you a cruise to antartica instead of a diamond ring,

Big BeeBee: would u take it?
Big BeeBee: $7970 cost
Big BeeBee: 17 days

State of Abe Expansion Ideals:

Europe first. Then the world. Too far? Too expensive? Insufficient time? Never Fear. We will raise armies to take it in due time.

Met two of my Eurp tourmates today in person... they drove down to visit!!~ Treated them to In & Out and we discussed the details of our trip and got to know each other thru question and answer. Got along with John and Danielle really well.

I'm not alone anymore. Feeling glad to be teambuilding because I'm good at it; feeling sad because this trip was about conquering chickenassedness by doing things on my own for once.

Second fishie in the bag. The long fought war is over. Victory!!~

Today I witness the worst and best of human nature on the job.

One cast me down the depths of despair until I thought that no matter what my efforts were, I could not build trust in him, and he left angry. For half a day, I pondered my limits and all the should've could've thoughts...

until the best of human nature, a single flare went up in the darkness and lighted my life... a stranger, who, not having sufficient cash on hand thru no fault of his own, offered me his paycheck as collateral. When a student offers you his paycheck, that is not to be taken lightly. The only wage UCI pays is minimum and they work you to death or boredom, whatever comes first. The cynicists in the audience are booing on this one, I know... they are murmuring what fool would entrust hard earned cash with strangers. But I say, this kind of trust is true gold.

I don't understand. I work so hard for trust on some people and it just never comes. Then I turn away in dismay and I get full trust from strangers. At 4:31am, I am lost. Lost in life.

T minus 8 days until liftoff...

Are an enemies' children my enemies? If I am 80% certain they will grow up to be as evil as their mother or father, should I smuther them while I still can?

A five year old boy who wants approval from all... not just the important people, but everyone. I see a boy who doesn't work as hard as he could to better himself, but very good at saving and despising waste. He thinks himself inherently superior, but doesn't know how... thinks his way is right, tries to prove people wrong by showing them superior and unconventional answers to problems. His dream occupation would be framing because he seems to like working the soil and wants to feed the world. I see a Hitler in the working; I also see Ghandi in the making.

--abe's self portrait

for me, I think law isn't as much of a passion as it is a practicality. Gotta do something post-grad. Law has a great effect on everything we do on a daily basis, but people don't know anything about it. Gotta know the law or be fucked by it. No other lawyers in the family. I don't hate it. It's shorter than grad school. Being a lawyer commands power and respect (despite universal hate and fear from society) and brings income. What else can you do with polisci and sociology degrees? It will give me the ability to benefit my friends and punish my enemies.

I'm not going to walk for graduation, but I might go and be in the audience. Why?

Graduation is the best opportunity to grab contact info and that's the real reason why I would go. I would go simply bring my address book for everyone to sign and take pictures with the people I care about.

As for closure of college for myself, graduation has a bit of finality to it, and my mission is not finished as I have three years of law school coming up.

For those that don't really care about keeping in touch, I wonder... is it because they know they will be famous and people will take steps to contact them? Is it because they are hermits who never really made lifelong friends in college? Is it because they would like to purge these last four years of challenge and drama from their lives?

3B Books division CEO Abeness the Babeness announced earlier today that book sales have virtually stopped saying that "inability to acquire new inventory has had a devastating effect on our sales." 3B Books parent, State of Abe, Inc., issued a statement alongside praising 3B Books for bringing their idea to fruitation and shareholders for their confidence in this modest venture.

State of Abe Growth Plan:

first 25 years-- find out what mankind has done.
second 25 years-- learning how mankind did what he has done.
last 25 years-- contributing to mans' knowledge to advance all that mankind has done.

State of Abe Buoyed By Travel Companions...

One of my tourmates I've been talking to has the same flight as me!!! How dope is that!!~ Oh and three of us are going to meet before the trip to chill and hang out... we already have talked on the phone. I'm going to treat them to my favorite fast food restuarant... yall can guess which one. 10 days left in counting!!~

rejected from davis, waitlisted on colorado. going to southwestern.

Reasons to do things on your own....

1. General incompetence of others.
2. If you succeed you get all the credit, if you fail you cannot take the easy way out of blaming others.
3. You can act quickly-- consensus in a large group is difficult.
4. Build confidence in making dreams into reality on your own.
5. So that others won't look as you as a weak parasite sucking off others.

money money money... people always asking me for money!! ugh!! Get off your lazy ass and go earn your own. I will provide psychological aid and support and even lend a helping hand, but you want something, you better do your best to get it instead of simply asking me for it.

camera broke, gotta return it... and here I was all excited too...

Got a fish in the bag. And a big one too! Just need one more...

I hope that all of you are healthy and relatively stress free.

This past month has been a busy one for me…. My typical weekday consists of posting ads for the apartment, emailing candidates, interviewing people for subleasing of summer, mailing any book orders I’ve gotten from my book business, researching on European destinations, trying to find peoples’ contact information so I can keep in touch after graduation, reading the newspaper each day, participating in school activities like Ambassador’s Council and SHOUT…

But I have found that I love college, and if I could, I would gladly stay an extra year. But I’ve already made future plans that suggest I’m moving on—Europe 12 days from now and Southwestern Law School (downtown LA) starting mid-August. I am increasingly interested in real estate law as managing Oxford has given me experience in contracts and management.

sorry havent been blogging. Blogs will be up by middle of this week.